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memories
I saw your face today.
In the mirror,
Next to mine.
Beaming smile next to that damn dimple of yours.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Today I knew,
I missed you.
I realized I will always miss you.
I wasn’t enough for you.
I said,
I cried,
I was so easily replaced and I knew why.
you were taken for granted.
sweet smiles,
and fragrant flowers.
i didn’t know [...]
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I’m handing out the pieces
of my shattered heart.
I placed the largest chunk in your palm
You tossed it to the ground,
Looked me in the face, through my teary eyes
Turned your back and walked
Away.
You’ve never looked back,
Keep walking your path to salvation.
I watch you dazzle the crowds
With your friendly chatter and salesman smile.
We cross roads, I grin,
you [...]
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Prey
Am I…
wrong?
right?
In assuming you’re here to stay
Should I…
tell?
hide?
Because you’ve disappeared before.
Are you…
in?
out?
Tell me what you want.
Is this…
real?
fake?
I’ll go crazy if I’m just a passing phase.
Because you get my hopes up
Then slash them down.
Like a bird in flight
Shot down by a shell,
Picked up by a hound,
Dragged to the hunter
Cooked on the grill.
Am I?
Are you?
Should I?
Is this?
My [...]
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unrealized potential
i know it’s over.
the truth hits like a ton of bricks.
no, no, not a ton of bricks
the whole brick house has crumbled on top of me.
but i don’t feel sad.
what could have been and what would have been
are two very different things
and now i realize.
it should have been crystal-clear.
he was right, i was right,
but together?-we [...]
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He Un-did You.
You wrote the book,
And he’s burned the pages
One by one.
As they went up in flames,
I remembered
the heartache, the tears,
that night,
when i…
when i…
He held me while I cried,
over history.
My hand in his,
his arm across my shoulder,
I knew I was safe.
never again,
Will I…
Will I…
You scribbled and ripped
on the pages.
My life was tattered,
torn at your hands.
I slipped away,
as [...]
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Obsolete
I don’t love you anymore.
I just want you to know that.
I don’t think about you anymore.
Not like I used to.
But, I do think about you,
I try to talk to you after I’ve thought about you,
But all I receive is silence.
It’s ok,
I don’t really need you to talk to me.
Because I don’t love you anymore,
And I [...]
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I knOw/knEw/lovE/lovED you
IN and OUT.
i know you
IN the rough times,
when you’re OUT cold,
IN sickness and IN health,
when you’re down and OUT.
I know you.
I knew you.
I love you.
I mean,
I loved you.
but not now.
I knew you.
IN and OUT
IN my life, through memories,
OUT, now, by choice.
IN sickness, alone,
who’s OUT of luck?
Stuck IN the past,
Feeling all left OUT.
I know you.
I knew [...]
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Life’s winner & loser
Waiting to win in this game that we’re playing
I’m in a constant state of competition.
The comparative narrations in my head,
Saying:
I’m an intellect,
I’m strong,
And I’m independent.
And you are absolutely none of those things
I made the right choices,
You haven’t…
Or have you?
Because if you don’t feel this thing I’m feeling…
Then you’ve already won.
This gnawing at my insides,
The [...]
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Frustrated, Inc. (part two)
Remember we met,
we were ‘young,’
we were ‘innocent,’ ‘naive’
Phone calls for hours,
silly little notes that I kept for years to come.
You were the first
to break my heart,
but I kept holding on.
six months on,
six months off
six months on,
always just a crush, nothing more.
Then I found another
a story that can’t be told enough to be understood.
Especially by me.
I [...]
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Frustrated, Inc. (part one)
Water droplets are forming in my eyes,
tearducts are barely able to hold back the wall of emotions
because now it hurts.
I told you it didn’t, but now it does.
I remember that night so vividly:
Dinner at Gino’s
Calamari, Ziti, Water…
that big red couch that we sat in,
me, curled up in your arms.
Me, drinking Mike’s and bitchbeers.
The lights were [...]
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